First post, among other things.
So here we go. I have a MySpace, a LiveJournal, a GreatestJournal, and a DeadJournal. I hardly update my MySpace or LiveJournal; and I never update the GreatestJournal or DeadJournal. And yet, here I am, taking over the fucking world in the form of a Blogger.

And I WILL take over the fucking world.

Ok, so the ego thing is a bit new. I had an interesting realization: the cooler you think you are, the cooler you actually are. It's all in how you perceive yourself. 'Cause, see, the more you tell yourself that you are the best thing to ever walk the entire fucking planet, the more you believe it. And the more you believe it, the more self esteem you will have. The more self esteem you have, the cooler you are because you don't spend your entire life telling everyone else how much you suck. So, I am THE best thing on two legs and you all can just fuck off if you don't believe me. :)

So how much sense did that make? Huh.

I'm moving to California on Thursday. It seems so goddamn close now. But then, I didn't make the decision for sure until about a week and a half ago. It's kind of a spur-of-the-moment thing. Missouri is quite a huge fucking jump, and I never remember living anywhere else. It's gonna give me a bit of a shock, surely. But I'll live, and I'll be better for it.

I don't even know what all I'm going to post about here. I guess we'll find out. I just have to remember to update this goddamn thing, is all.

Back to California.

I think I may have too many expectations for it. I think that it won't be as good for me as I believe it will be. You never know, though. Maybe it will be the best thing that ever happened to me. Maybe the worst. Maybe I'll fall in love, maybe I'll get shot by a crackhead. Maybe maybe maybe maybe; it's all maybes.

Nevermind. Fuck it. If I keep going on like this, I'll get nervous, I'll lose my will.

I will go to California, I will find an awesome job, I will have the time of my fucking life.

I promise I will try to update this later. :) Pinky swear.

Labels: california, ego

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